so today started off nice. got to work and spent time with my lovelies. they were exceptionally sweet and cute this morning. then my dad showed up so i could go to my obgyn appointment. i got there on time and then sweat nervously as i waited for bud. he met me there and i was so nervous that he was not going to be there in time. but praise God, he made it. we went in and talked to the doctor and she confirmed a fear i've been hoping would not be true.
i have polycystic ovarian syndrome. in short its a hormone imbalance that causes infertility issues. what happens is my egg follicles do not mature fully meaning they will not release, meaning i'm not ovulating. which in turn means it is impossible to get pregnant. a big part behind it is the fact that i'm overweight and not producing enough insulin. and basically makes for amenorrhea or missed periods. i have been put on metformin (a few months ago now) and they just recently upped my dosage from 500 to 2000! so the big thing for me to do now is lose weight and stay on the metformin. if i'm able to lose weight and the metformin does not bring on a period, then the next step is to take clomid. i'm scared of that stuff but if it helps then awesome. but i really need to not worry about getting pregnant and just focus on changing my lifestyle, not being lazy and actually cooking food and eating healthily. its so difficult but if i want children - i need to do this. being overweight is not the only reason i have pcos but it is a big part of it. sucks what being fat can do to you.
the devastating thing for me is the fact that i don't only have pcos but that is coupled now with my endometriosis. why doctor's ask me why i know i have it drives me crazy. and why they act as if its not a big deal drives me even more insane. endometriosis is awful. its debilitating, its embarrassing, its annoying... it can lead to cancer! it is a major cause of infertility! *sigh* i will never understand why they don't do more to find a cure or at the very least, find the culprit behind what causes the dang thing. *sigh*
anyway - so that was that. glad bud was there with me. glad they said that his tests he had done were a-okay. glad to know he is in good working order. go bud!
afterwards, i went back to work and ate lunch and played with carter and evan alongside my dad for about an hour before they went down for a nap. my dad watched the boys while i was gone and stayed a little while longer to keep playing. it was a lot of fun. i've spent a lot of time with my dad and mom this week. its been a nice time! anyway - finished the day off at work strong and fun. oh man, its been a long time since i played with a mr. potato head. haha.
after work i headed straight to my parents house where my mom and i got together and went to get our nails did. i got a pedicure, crystal gel, and got my eyebrows waxed. it had been so long since then and oh man it was way overdo! haha. but it was nice and i enjoyed talking to the lady who did my nails. and she is totally like the crystal gel lady. if you have not seen this video... go watch. its lovely. i looooove it.
so after nails i went and had dinner at my parents house. we had soup! i had my dad's homemade turkey soup which is amazingly wonderful! yummy! now i am home and cleaned up monsters 2 day withheld poop off the floor and lysol'd the floor. ugh. but now my nose hairs are burning because i sprayed too much. i forget how potent that stuff is. so anyway it is 10 and i should be in bed. im so tired anyway i think i will. here is a picture for you!
i have polycystic ovarian syndrome. in short its a hormone imbalance that causes infertility issues. what happens is my egg follicles do not mature fully meaning they will not release, meaning i'm not ovulating. which in turn means it is impossible to get pregnant. a big part behind it is the fact that i'm overweight and not producing enough insulin. and basically makes for amenorrhea or missed periods. i have been put on metformin (a few months ago now) and they just recently upped my dosage from 500 to 2000! so the big thing for me to do now is lose weight and stay on the metformin. if i'm able to lose weight and the metformin does not bring on a period, then the next step is to take clomid. i'm scared of that stuff but if it helps then awesome. but i really need to not worry about getting pregnant and just focus on changing my lifestyle, not being lazy and actually cooking food and eating healthily. its so difficult but if i want children - i need to do this. being overweight is not the only reason i have pcos but it is a big part of it. sucks what being fat can do to you.
the devastating thing for me is the fact that i don't only have pcos but that is coupled now with my endometriosis. why doctor's ask me why i know i have it drives me crazy. and why they act as if its not a big deal drives me even more insane. endometriosis is awful. its debilitating, its embarrassing, its annoying... it can lead to cancer! it is a major cause of infertility! *sigh* i will never understand why they don't do more to find a cure or at the very least, find the culprit behind what causes the dang thing. *sigh*
anyway - so that was that. glad bud was there with me. glad they said that his tests he had done were a-okay. glad to know he is in good working order. go bud!
afterwards, i went back to work and ate lunch and played with carter and evan alongside my dad for about an hour before they went down for a nap. my dad watched the boys while i was gone and stayed a little while longer to keep playing. it was a lot of fun. i've spent a lot of time with my dad and mom this week. its been a nice time! anyway - finished the day off at work strong and fun. oh man, its been a long time since i played with a mr. potato head. haha.
after work i headed straight to my parents house where my mom and i got together and went to get our nails did. i got a pedicure, crystal gel, and got my eyebrows waxed. it had been so long since then and oh man it was way overdo! haha. but it was nice and i enjoyed talking to the lady who did my nails. and she is totally like the crystal gel lady. if you have not seen this video... go watch. its lovely. i looooove it.
so after nails i went and had dinner at my parents house. we had soup! i had my dad's homemade turkey soup which is amazingly wonderful! yummy! now i am home and cleaned up monsters 2 day withheld poop off the floor and lysol'd the floor. ugh. but now my nose hairs are burning because i sprayed too much. i forget how potent that stuff is. so anyway it is 10 and i should be in bed. im so tired anyway i think i will. here is a picture for you!
i definitely miss this. small group at the oppenheim's house in temecula... so much to think about and miss... but so glad i've grown a lot since then. however, i wish i was as disciplined to study the word more... *sigh*
goodnight. work tomorrow and bible study tomorrow night. busiest week ever! oxox
Health is not valued till sickness comes.