songbird says stuff...

just a short update while a song downloads and such. i'm making a video for my boss for mother's day and for the babies birthday that's coming up next month. i can't believe i've been with them for nearly 6 months!!! the babies are growing up and its awesome but sad! speaking of the babies. they were delightful today, for the most part. little ailia is not feeling well. there's something thats just off with her. she's not eating well. hmm... hopefully its just that she is teething and she will feel better soon. sadly i can't give her any motrin because it was RECALLED! that is just so scary!

anyway - bud and i had a lame fight but all is well in the world now. i cooked dinner and it was not that great - it wasn't bad, but i'm just better at cooking when i'm not stressed out and upset. then i came in here and started making this video thingy for rhonda. i'm excited by it. i hope it makes her smile and i hope it means a lot to her. we'll see how it goes. i hope to give it to her on Friday. :) fun fun. anyway - gonna go. gonna try to finish this up by 10 and get in bed earlier than last night.

oh bud and i are caught up on the big bang theory... so now we can watch it on tv. and we can start getting caught up on our other shows (heroes, house & bleach). yep.

i guess thats all for now. i'm so tired today and wishing i was pregnant... oh the day can't come soon enough but my patience must be put into practice and i must trust the Lord's timing. okay, i shall depart now. grace&peace.

so this weekend has oddly busy but seemed semi-long which is a nice change of pace. friday at work, rhonda and i drove around and got a lot of things accomplished while hanging out. she wanted to spend time with the babies and its always easier to do that when you have a second person with you. we went to whole foods for lunch, went to the optometrist, went to Home Depot, went to the pharmacy, got gas, went to saigon palace to pick up dinner for her and richard and came home. all that with twins is rather exhausting. then when i got home i went with my neighbor friend katy (who is a new friend of mine and i'm enjoying getting to know her) to my best friend katie's cookie lee party she was hosting. it was fun. had a few drinks, joked about old times, reminisced and such. katy bought a few things and i got a few things for free. we came home and bud and i had a good night watching the big bang theory. i realize i talk about it in almost every one of my posts now, but i just can't help it. i'm absolutely enamored by this show. it is phenomenal.

saturday - i was unable to sleep in again. i REALLY want to be able to sleep in past 8am on a day when i don't have to be up! so bud woke up and mowed the lawn (the little lawn that we do have at our house) and i drove over to my parents house to give them our extra picture of us at Medieval Times. i took monster truck with me. i don't get to have quality time with my pupper's often enough so a car ride and a walk around my parents house was a nice outing. unfortunately my parents weren't home so i had to leave it with a note telling them i had been there. when we came home, bud and i decided to go to a movie and have a date. we hadn't been on a date in a while. so we went to Dragon House (the chinese restaurant that we  frequent), then to Rita's, then to Lush and then to the movie. (oh yeah, we went to hot topic where i got the most amazing iPhone cover EVER!!



we saw "Hot Tub Time Machine" with john cusack. its a really funny movie that is pretty ridiculous and just out there. i do not recommend it though as there is a bit of excessive sex jokes and raunchiness to it. which was the downside. but the other jokes were really funny. after the movie we came home and relaxed a bit. we spent some time together and then around midnight we both got hungry. we thought it was a good idea to go to taco bell and have a "fourth meal" if you will. we ate taco bell and continued getting caught up on our show and afterwards... the good idea of taco bell turned into a horrible idea. we both had taco gut. we felt like we were going to throw up and pretty much went into a taco bell comatose state of mind.

today - sunday, we decided to take a week off church. i just wanted a weekend where i didn't have ANY plans at all. so i went to my parents house and got some mail, picked up a bag full of old pictures (soon i will scan them and upload them... talk about classic pictures and memories of old times. CRAZY) and hung out talking with my parentals. it was a nice time. i took monster truck with me again and my mom took her for a walk. if theres anything my mom wants more than anything in this world, that is a physical possession, its a dog. so i'm glad she's able to play with mine. i came home and bud and i realized we hadn't eaten yet. so we went out, had some pizza at Rocco's Pizzeria (the pizza is NYC style and very good!), drove around eastport and downtown annapolis looking at houses and seeing the weekend festivities. it was fun but man let me tell you - i forgot how crappy a lot of maryland drivers are. actually, i think in general, most drivers are crappy. and not just in maryland, everywhere. because i sure came across my fair share of unqualified drivers in california and don't get me started on how they drive in hong kong! (but i must say our friend winson is a good driver!) anyhow... we went to the mall because bud wanted dairy queen. we walked around and got some exercise in and looked at some stuff in some places and whatnot. i love how vague i can be at times. its a gift, although it drives certain people nuts. oh well.

bud and i drove an extremely long way home. but when we finally came home, what do you think we did? yes, you are correct if you guessed that we continued to watch our show and get caught up. i think we have only 2 more episodes until we're officially caught up with season 3. what in the world am i going to do with myself??? THIS IS A DISASTER!!!! CRISIS!!! okay. i'm better now. had some waffles for dinner and now i really should be getting into bed and heading off to dreamland. i think i will in a bit. but i just want to say a few things first...

i need a devotional that i can follow through daily to help me stay in the word each day. i try to just open a area of scripture and read but it doesn't help me retain anything that i read. i almost need to do devotionals as if they were school work. when i have something to listen to or to read, i take notes while at work and the babies are sleeping. i write tons of notes at church because the message is structured and consistent within itself. (trust me, if the sermon is not, and its not biblically based and its just a bunch of fluff... i lose interest and my notes are scarce) so i really need to get a decent devotional that i can write in, follow along with and dive deep into the word. my new bible is awesome and i want to use it to my fullest capabilities!

i love my husband.

i love my job. but can't wait to take a vacation soon... lets see what happens. france? maybe. hawaii? possibly. who knows really. but i MUST say... 6 flags will happen this summer. and so will the wizarding world of harry potter in orlando, florida. yes. it will happen. it will happen and it will be glorious.

okay now i'm off to bed. this is much longer than i had anticipated. i can be a bit long winded i suppose. but then again, i'm updating for numerous days again. i will try my best to keep up to date this week, for those of you who read my blog. love you! oh real quick... go to this website and vote for bud's rap song. it features me too! we're trying to get on the 2010 hip hop census mix tape. check it:

vote!!
this is what you do: at the bottom of the page (past all the comments) fill out your name, email, etc. and in the comment section do the following:

1. Leave the name of the track (1 only) of your choice in the comments section of this blog entry. Remember to include the youtube link.

Our title to the song is: "That King" and the link to the video is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0h_Q7oLkLTQ and bud's youtube name is fecklessman.

2. Include a breakdown/explanation (2 sentence minimum) of why you chose this track.

3. Votes must include #1 and #2 to be counted as a valid vote.

4. If you don’t see your comment posted, that means it probably wasn’t counted as a valid vote.

happy voting all. love you all. ciao.

I am updating from my phone to say that tomorrow I will write a decent blog entry. I've had a good 2 days. I'm so tired and feeling sick from a bad decision of having taco bell way too late at night to write anymore though. So this is all you get for now. Ugh. Goodnight.

holy cow, i truly do fail at this. i haven't written in here for nearly a week. i am very truly sorry. i just haven't been in the mood to turn on my computer and well, yeah thats about it. theres been a lot going on this week, lots to tell. where should i start. hmm... let me take that back. its been a busy 2 days is better way to explain it. monday and tuesday were pretty uneventful except on tuesday, bud and i recorded a song together! i think it turned out pretty dang sweet if i do say so myself. you can see the video here. i hope you like it. if you do - please comment in the comments section on youtube. bud entered it into a contest, it'd be pretty awesome if we were picked. who knows. anyway - OH OH OH OH OH OH!! CONGRATS TO TIFFANY AND NORM WOO!!!! my dear friend tiffany got married saturday and i'm so happy for her. she's found the man she wants to spend the rest of her life with and i'm so blessed that God has blessed her. hooray.

okay. that was that. yesterday however was VERY eventful. let me begin...

yesterday bud and i celebrated our 3 year anniversary! its a strange paradox i feel when i think about how long bud and i have been married. we've been married 3 years which is truly not that long but it also feels like we've been married much longer. let me explain before you all (whoever reads this... HI BECKY and i think HI HEATHER!) joke about oh man honeymoon is over. its so not true. we still love each other more and more each day and just today bud and i were discussing childhood memories (this particular one was started over a bowl of cereal) and it dawned on me that even after nearly 8 years of being together, we still have a lifetime of experiences and things to talk about. i love that we can still learn about each other and learn from one another. oh its so great!!! now to explain the 3 years feeling longer than 3 years. bud and i have been through so much, been to many different places, struggled and grew in the Lord, moved a few times, went out of the country a few times, struggled financially, etc. so with all that happening in such a short period of time, it makes it seem like a lot longer. but i do not resent anything that has made the time seem longer. i'm blessed by it, truly. we have grown in so many different areas of our life and its but a sweet offering to the Lord and a testimony of His faithfulness. but i digress...

yesterday. i had one of the worst days with the babies i've ever had, since i started working for the gillingwater family. when i first started, the initial warm up period was a bit rough. they were moving houses, the babies were sick, they had family over, i was new to them, they were new to me... it was just a lot on all of us and it was just a mad moment of chaos. but since then, things have evened out nicely and we all get along well. and i can confidently say that the babies LOVE me! hooray... because i love them. but again... yesterday. they did NOT want to nap. i think they both slept a total of 15 minutes and for the rest of the day they were cranky, moody, testy, and all the other things babies can be. basically they were living out their sinful nature... they were small, cute steaming piles of flesh festering within themselves... and it put me in a horrible mood. it was one of those days where i felt totally inept. i felt so unqualified to be taking care of children because i was so frustrated and overwhelmed. thankfully, a few of my friends who are mothers, encouraged me that everyone gets days like that. and thankfully - i had a good evening ahead of me planned so i was able to remind myself... this is only temporary.

after work, i went home and gave bud his awesome anniversary present that took me days to make. i formulated a husband talent tree... now if you don't play WOW you won't have any clue as to what that is... but let me show you an example of one from the game, shall i.

so today i woke up late. i had a long conversation via text with a dear friend of mine who is going through a tough time, between the hours of 4am and 6am. i wish i was of more help to her but i know she knows i love her. if she doesn't, she's lost her brain completely! you know who you are. i love you and cherish you. hooray for you!

today i was supposed to go to john's memorial but didn't make it. i had a blinding migraine this morning and then by the time it was gone, i didn't have time to get there in time. but i was thinking of him and wishing all his friends and family best wishes and sending my prayers. its stuff like this - having friends who pass away at such a young age that reminds me how delicate life is and how short it truly is. how we are not guaranteed tomorrow and we need to be leaning on the Lord for His grace and strength to get through this cluster of messes this life sends our way. Lord grant us your peace and your grace, we need it every day. we need your guidance and we need you to save us from ourselves. salvation is in your hands, not ours.

so what did i do today then? i had a huge nerd day with my husband. it was a lot of fun. we played world of warcraft pretty much all day and in between we went to good will, 5 guys, and watched the big bang theory. i love playing WOW with my husband, i should really protest less about it. he enjoys it when i play and it keeps the arguments to a minimum. then we can keep our arguments for my random sobfests and what we're going to eat for dinner. i'm serious, we argue most about what we're going to eat rather than anything substantial. thats pretty good i suppose.

so i will say it. i really want a baby. Lord, please bring me one. amen.

i think i'm going to record a song singing with JulieAndStacy via youtube awesomeness. when it happens, i'll be sure to post it. its going to be radtacular!

lets see what else. going to the new church again tomorrow. although there are no people our age from what we saw last weekend, it will be nice to have a close knit family to grow and learn with. also - may 19th (i think thats the date) they are having one of their missionaries come and do a presentation. guess where they do work? china. awesome. i truly hope that this is the Lords providence and that we are given a greater idea at what God is going to be doing in Hong Kong and where bud and i will fit in. we know we're moving there, thats not in question. its more of a when and if we'll have anyone else coming with us and such. anyway - just stuff to think about. its about 2 years away from fruition (moving to hk that is).

i guess i'm done for today with this blog. i shall go. love you all. goodnight.

i have a lot on my mind but i don't have the right words to say. where in the world would i start. how would i explain all the things going on in my mind. i don't think i can. not at this moment. so i think i will just say - i'm probably going to bed early and waking up early (like i seem to do every weekend... wish i could stay up but i get so tired and then wish i could sleep in but i can't) and such. so i shall go for now. sorry for this weaksauce blog entry. but at least i made an attempt. don't hate me, becky! ciao.

today becky and brody came over after i got off work. i made chicken tacos (let me tell you, that $10 crockpot i purchased is one of the best $10 i have ever spent!!) and refried beans and mexican rice. it was awesome! i ate a little too much. i guess thats what happens when you go from having mexican food at least 2-3 times a month to not having it since december. (taco bell does NOT count, becky) anyway, brody was unnerved. every time he comes over, he cries for the first hour or 2 that he's here. then he concedes. "well, i'm not getting out of here, mom is staying so that means i am too" and then he's fine. its really quite cute. i love him. i love becky too. she's a lot of fun. i hope i don't bore her with the things that i find interesting or fun but then again, she keeps coming over so i guess i don't bore her too much.

Today was okay. Fell asleep at work while the babies napped. Feeling nauseous on and off today. Watching big bang theory with bud. That is all for now. Ciao.

this weekend has been pretty crappy. a friend of mine passed away after a life long battle with cystic fibrosis. he was 2 years younger than i am. so when i say that life is short - i mean life is ridiculously short. when a parent has to bury their child instead of it being the other way around, there's something wrong. my heart grieves for any parent that has had to bury their child, that has had to say goodbye all too soon. granted - i can't really say that with a clear conscience because who am i to number the days of the people i know. only God can number the days of the people on this earth. He knows the number of hairs on my head and the number of days i'm going to live. amazing. anyway - john settino, you will be missed greatly. you were a sweet guy who always had a way of making people cheer up and see the brighter side of things. i'm blessed to have known you. his death happens to occur shortly before the anniversary of another dear friend of mine who passed away nearly 3 years ago. my dear friend, gordy mercovich. he passed away of a aortic aneurysm and later the doctors found out that he had marfans syndrome. he was an amazingly funny guy and had such a way with people. he made friends anywhere and everywhere he went. everyday i'd send him emails while at work and within seconds he'd respond. it was like instant messaging, without the messenger thing. we had gordy donna mails. oh my dear donna. i need to write her and let her know i'm thinking of her.

also - yesterday my world of warcraft account got hacked into. yes, i'm a nerd. yes i play mmorpg's. yes i play world of warcrack. no i am not ashamed of it. anyway - someone somehow hacked into my account and sold all my stuff. very very unhappy was i. yes. (say that in a yoda voice). i wasn't that upset that all my stuff was gone, although i was pretty bummed by that as a lot of it was stuff that just brought back memories of different times in my life. (i've been playing this game since it started...) i was more upset that someone found out my information and hacked into something that was meant to be private. i felt violated and if you know anything about me, thats a touchy subject for me. knowing that somehow, some random person i don't even know, got my information, waited till i was asleep or not on the game to get on my account, steal stuff (yes i know its fake but its the principle, not the actual fact that the things in the game were valuable. i'm not that lame, i know they are not important) and leave it there for me to find. lame. and creepy.

oh and i got potential bad news but i won't divulge into that now. i will wait until i know for sure. so until then, you'll have to remain in suspense. mwahaha.

so since i was having such a crappy day, bud and i drowned our sorrows in pizza and the big bang theory. might i add, this is probably one of my new favorite sitcoms ever! it is so perfect. the writers are geniuses! and its really quite clean considering it has the potential to be another raunchy comedy show on tv. i'm glad that the sex jokes are kept to a minimum. its a show i could recommend to my parents without saying "sorry about that episode..." so maybe i will. i'll have to have them watch it.

today bud and i went to a different church. i did miss hearing pastor bruce speak, but the message today at the new church was excellent and i did love that its a smaller congregation. we were able to fellowship with the members and get to know some of them. i think we'll end up there. its an OPC which is orthodox presbyterian. we've done a complete 180 in the realm of churches since bud and i started dating. we started at a non-denominational community church in san marcos. then we started doing calvary chapel. then we went to crossweave which is lacking-denomination. then to PCA (presbyterian church of america) and now we're at the orthodox. wow. who knew i'd be comfortable going to a church where head coverings are actually a topic of discussion and doctrine isn't something thats left up to the pastor (i'm not saying that all the churches i went to before now are like that. especially not crossweave. we served their happily and we miss them so much. they are still our church family. we love you guys!) and the other elders. just sayin'. we've been to a heap of churches.

now i'm talking to my friend becky whom i love. you all should love becky too. she's pretty with great hair and a sweet little boy whom i love! brody is the man!!!

but now i must go to sleep. i have to get up early and its already 10:40pm. i thought i'd go to bed earlier but becky told me to write a blog so i am. but now she has to read it and i demand that she post a comment. and not just a "see i read it and here's your comment" type thing. because that is something she would do.

okay. i am out. i will leave you with an awesome quote from the big bang theory:

sheldon - " scissors cuts paper, paper covers rock, rock crushes lizard, lizard poisons spock, spock smashes scissors, scissors decapitates lizard, lizard eats paper, paper disproves spock, spock vaporizes rock and as it always has, rock crushes scissors."

go watch. its excellent. k now i sleep for real. goodnight. byebye.

i guarantee that this won't be a very interesting blog, seeing as its 12:08am and i'm exhausted. anyway. so whats happened within the last 24 hours since i last wrote on this here blog? well hmm... an amazing friend blessed me with a gift that i'll be receiving in about a week or so. he is the coolness. cool of the ness. almost like the lochness... but less monster and more cool. what am i saying? ignore that. oh and we came up with the word sleepypants (actually he came up with it and i agreed that it was a good word). sleepypants.

i went to work and worked 14 hours. at least the girls were, for the most part, well behaved and didn't cause me to want to rip every strand of hair out of my head. bud brought me cake at lunch and then he surprised me with sushi for dinner. oh he knows the way to my heart. he came and spent the evening with me at my work and we watched the big bang theory. i LOVE that show. its pretty ridiculously funny. then we ate coldstone ice cream. i'm pretty sure i've had way too many calories today.

i got home and found my neighbor outside chatting on the phone. but then we ended up talking for like a half hour! she's very nice and is going through a lot, so i hope that i can help out or at least just be an ear to listen. i also hope that i can show her Christ through my actions and through my life and that God will speak through me.

now i'm talking to my dear friend becky. she is awesome.

i think i will end this now. goodnight world. ciao.