i love my husband. i love my puppy. i love my kitty. i love my family (my side). i love my family (bud's side). i love my church. i love my home. i love living in maryland. i love my friends (and miss a great many of them).
i'm an emotional wreck lately. the past week, a day hasn't gone by where i haven't gotten choked up and teary eyed over something. today it was a simple prayer of a little boy named augustine. yesterday it was a video of a couple telling their parents they were having a baby and the joy on the grandparents faces! its getting really ridiculous. i really hate being an emotional roller coaster and i think i'm possibly driving my husband nuts because of my ups and downs. i just pray that these emotions will chill out. i don't necessarily like crying for no reason or for silly reasons. i mean, i cried during a saved by the bell episode this week. really? its pretty interesting.
as i wrote before, i've been thinking about babies a lot. if and when bud and i get pregnant i truly want to go about everything the natural way. ESPECIALLY the labor/delivery part. after researching and watching videos of water births for years, this one sealed the deal for me. i saw it almost 3 years ago and have been reading the blog of this remarkable woman. just seeing the beauty, the amazing emotions and love on her and her husbands face, and all - it sealed the deal. but now i wanted to speak out about it. what an amazing way to have your child. naturally and in a calm setting, surrounded by people who love you (i'm hoping to have bud, my mom, and mama joni there) and being able to do things at your own pace. no drugs, no bright lights. if all goes well, thats the way bud and i plan to go about it. the difference between a hospital birth and a home (or natural birthing center) birth are incredibly substantial. in a hospital setting, everything is so rushed and very medically oriented. a home birth is very serene and personal. so i'm praying that we're able to do that, whenever i get pregnant.
'i've got chills. they're multiplying and i'm loosing control... you better shape up, 'cause i need a man. but my heart is set on you...' oh how i love listening to a RENT station on pandora. i get all sorts of fun songs to listen too. lost is on in 4 minutes, so i guess i should get going soon.
my husband is standing in the doorway to the bathroom singing (very emphatically) along *silently* to 'defying gravity' from the musical wicked and i was just summoned to the television because the movie is on. that was a quick 4 minutes. so i guess i shall go. real quick: work was good today and yesterday. sort of can't believe tomorrow is wednesday. this week is going kind of quickly. lots of stuff on my mind that makes the days feel SO slow, but in reality the week goes by quickly. i don't know if that makes sense. okay - LOST! time to go. ciao.
IS EVER GONNA BRING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN.
i'm an emotional wreck lately. the past week, a day hasn't gone by where i haven't gotten choked up and teary eyed over something. today it was a simple prayer of a little boy named augustine. yesterday it was a video of a couple telling their parents they were having a baby and the joy on the grandparents faces! its getting really ridiculous. i really hate being an emotional roller coaster and i think i'm possibly driving my husband nuts because of my ups and downs. i just pray that these emotions will chill out. i don't necessarily like crying for no reason or for silly reasons. i mean, i cried during a saved by the bell episode this week. really? its pretty interesting.
as i wrote before, i've been thinking about babies a lot. if and when bud and i get pregnant i truly want to go about everything the natural way. ESPECIALLY the labor/delivery part. after researching and watching videos of water births for years, this one sealed the deal for me. i saw it almost 3 years ago and have been reading the blog of this remarkable woman. just seeing the beauty, the amazing emotions and love on her and her husbands face, and all - it sealed the deal. but now i wanted to speak out about it. what an amazing way to have your child. naturally and in a calm setting, surrounded by people who love you (i'm hoping to have bud, my mom, and mama joni there) and being able to do things at your own pace. no drugs, no bright lights. if all goes well, thats the way bud and i plan to go about it. the difference between a hospital birth and a home (or natural birthing center) birth are incredibly substantial. in a hospital setting, everything is so rushed and very medically oriented. a home birth is very serene and personal. so i'm praying that we're able to do that, whenever i get pregnant.
'i've got chills. they're multiplying and i'm loosing control... you better shape up, 'cause i need a man. but my heart is set on you...' oh how i love listening to a RENT station on pandora. i get all sorts of fun songs to listen too. lost is on in 4 minutes, so i guess i should get going soon.
my husband is standing in the doorway to the bathroom singing (very emphatically) along *silently* to 'defying gravity' from the musical wicked and i was just summoned to the television because the movie is on. that was a quick 4 minutes. so i guess i shall go. real quick: work was good today and yesterday. sort of can't believe tomorrow is wednesday. this week is going kind of quickly. lots of stuff on my mind that makes the days feel SO slow, but in reality the week goes by quickly. i don't know if that makes sense. okay - LOST! time to go. ciao.
IS EVER GONNA BRING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN.
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