holy cow, i truly do fail at this. i haven't written in here for nearly a week. i am very truly sorry. i just haven't been in the mood to turn on my computer and well, yeah thats about it. theres been a lot going on this week, lots to tell. where should i start. hmm... let me take that back. its been a busy 2 days is better way to explain it. monday and tuesday were pretty uneventful except on tuesday, bud and i recorded a song together! i think it turned out pretty dang sweet if i do say so myself. you can see the video here. i hope you like it. if you do - please comment in the comments section on youtube. bud entered it into a contest, it'd be pretty awesome if we were picked. who knows. anyway - OH OH OH OH OH OH!! CONGRATS TO TIFFANY AND NORM WOO!!!! my dear friend tiffany got married saturday and i'm so happy for her. she's found the man she wants to spend the rest of her life with and i'm so blessed that God has blessed her. hooray.
okay. that was that. yesterday however was VERY eventful. let me begin...
yesterday bud and i celebrated our 3 year anniversary! its a strange paradox i feel when i think about how long bud and i have been married. we've been married 3 years which is truly not that long but it also feels like we've been married much longer. let me explain before you all (whoever reads this... HI BECKY and i think HI HEATHER!) joke about oh man honeymoon is over. its so not true. we still love each other more and more each day and just today bud and i were discussing childhood memories (this particular one was started over a bowl of cereal) and it dawned on me that even after nearly 8 years of being together, we still have a lifetime of experiences and things to talk about. i love that we can still learn about each other and learn from one another. oh its so great!!! now to explain the 3 years feeling longer than 3 years. bud and i have been through so much, been to many different places, struggled and grew in the Lord, moved a few times, went out of the country a few times, struggled financially, etc. so with all that happening in such a short period of time, it makes it seem like a lot longer. but i do not resent anything that has made the time seem longer. i'm blessed by it, truly. we have grown in so many different areas of our life and its but a sweet offering to the Lord and a testimony of His faithfulness. but i digress...
yesterday. i had one of the worst days with the babies i've ever had, since i started working for the gillingwater family. when i first started, the initial warm up period was a bit rough. they were moving houses, the babies were sick, they had family over, i was new to them, they were new to me... it was just a lot on all of us and it was just a mad moment of chaos. but since then, things have evened out nicely and we all get along well. and i can confidently say that the babies LOVE me! hooray... because i love them. but again... yesterday. they did NOT want to nap. i think they both slept a total of 15 minutes and for the rest of the day they were cranky, moody, testy, and all the other things babies can be. basically they were living out their sinful nature... they were small, cute steaming piles of flesh festering within themselves... and it put me in a horrible mood. it was one of those days where i felt totally inept. i felt so unqualified to be taking care of children because i was so frustrated and overwhelmed. thankfully, a few of my friends who are mothers, encouraged me that everyone gets days like that. and thankfully - i had a good evening ahead of me planned so i was able to remind myself... this is only temporary.
after work, i went home and gave bud his awesome anniversary present that took me days to make. i formulated a husband talent tree... now if you don't play WOW you won't have any clue as to what that is... but let me show you an example of one from the game, shall i.
okay. that was that. yesterday however was VERY eventful. let me begin...
yesterday bud and i celebrated our 3 year anniversary! its a strange paradox i feel when i think about how long bud and i have been married. we've been married 3 years which is truly not that long but it also feels like we've been married much longer. let me explain before you all (whoever reads this... HI BECKY and i think HI HEATHER!) joke about oh man honeymoon is over. its so not true. we still love each other more and more each day and just today bud and i were discussing childhood memories (this particular one was started over a bowl of cereal) and it dawned on me that even after nearly 8 years of being together, we still have a lifetime of experiences and things to talk about. i love that we can still learn about each other and learn from one another. oh its so great!!! now to explain the 3 years feeling longer than 3 years. bud and i have been through so much, been to many different places, struggled and grew in the Lord, moved a few times, went out of the country a few times, struggled financially, etc. so with all that happening in such a short period of time, it makes it seem like a lot longer. but i do not resent anything that has made the time seem longer. i'm blessed by it, truly. we have grown in so many different areas of our life and its but a sweet offering to the Lord and a testimony of His faithfulness. but i digress...
yesterday. i had one of the worst days with the babies i've ever had, since i started working for the gillingwater family. when i first started, the initial warm up period was a bit rough. they were moving houses, the babies were sick, they had family over, i was new to them, they were new to me... it was just a lot on all of us and it was just a mad moment of chaos. but since then, things have evened out nicely and we all get along well. and i can confidently say that the babies LOVE me! hooray... because i love them. but again... yesterday. they did NOT want to nap. i think they both slept a total of 15 minutes and for the rest of the day they were cranky, moody, testy, and all the other things babies can be. basically they were living out their sinful nature... they were small, cute steaming piles of flesh festering within themselves... and it put me in a horrible mood. it was one of those days where i felt totally inept. i felt so unqualified to be taking care of children because i was so frustrated and overwhelmed. thankfully, a few of my friends who are mothers, encouraged me that everyone gets days like that. and thankfully - i had a good evening ahead of me planned so i was able to remind myself... this is only temporary.
after work, i went home and gave bud his awesome anniversary present that took me days to make. i formulated a husband talent tree... now if you don't play WOW you won't have any clue as to what that is... but let me show you an example of one from the game, shall i.
okay. so instead of rogue-esque talents, he has a bunch of different ones! the 3 different trees are - SMASHT, WINNAR, OWNED. with a plethera of things that go on that. its like a flow chart kind of. :) hooray for flow charts. i think they rule. pretty much. bud concurs. oh and to say that he liked his present would be an understatement. he has already thought out what he's going to pick. if you are still confused - you should probably play some more mmorpg's. yes.
after that we went to... MEDIEVAL TIMES!!! it was flippin' sweet! we ate with our hands, drank alcoholic beverages out of steins and knight helmets, screamed and cheered, heckled at the green knight and his followers. awesome. it was awesome to see people joust and fight with swords and whatnot. i seriously could have stayed another 2 hours. i hope we can do it again! its kind of pricey, but definitely worth it if you ask us. so then we came home and i went to bed. that was pretty much our epic evening. and it totally took the focus off my particularly horrendous day. teehee.
today was better with the babies. but for some reason, ms. ailia is still off. i'm wondering if its her teeth or if she is not feeling well. the slightest thing wakes her up so she isn't resting well and she won't let herself fall asleep while resting and lying down. she had one nap today and by 4pm she was miserable. thankfully, leila was pretty much perfect today. well... as perfect as a baby can be. sometimes she looks at me with such a happy face and my heart melts. i want a little one of my own so bad it hurts. i even thought of getting facebook because i hear about people getting pregnant almost everyday. i realize i'm at the age where people are looking to expand their families and such. and honest to God i am SO happy for everyone who is pregnant. i cannot resent them at all. if i did, i'd be resenting an act of God and thats just ridiculous. but i do get jealous and i know i shouldn't. thats why i did not delete my facebook. and i need to be praising God for those little babies who will be born and the lives they will be given the chance to live! oh to be killing sin.. God please break this jealousy out of my heart. its stupid and its a lack of faith in you that you will allow me to conceive no matter what the circumstance.
well, this is much longer than i thought it'd be. but i guess thats what i get for not updating for almost a week. i'm sorry and i'll try to keep up with this. i love writing in it. i just need to actually feel like sitting in front of my computer. tomorrow is work and then a cookie lee party. katie, my best friend since i was 5, is holding it and although i'm not very into stuff like that, i want to support her and who knows, maybe i'll like something! well, i guess thats all. i will talk to you all later. love you. grace&peace.
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