songbird says stuff...

so i'm realizing a few things. i need a vacation. while i just went to california in september, it was not really a vacation for me. i did a lot of stuff and visited a lot. i didn't just veg. what i really want, is a vacation where i can lounge about, have a few drinks now and again, eat awesome food and just kind of be pampered. i can't tell you the last time i was pampered. probably when i went down to georgia and had my make-over by a lovely lovely person. the salon she works in does this paraffin wax hand massage thing, they get you drinks, rub your shoulders, do your hair, and basically keep you comfortable and relaxed the entire time. it was an amazing experience. how i wish i could do that again. sadly, it costs money and we don't have a large amount of money to just throw on vacations. i don't know what i'd do for a vacation though... i'd love to go to hawaii, but that most likely won't happen any time soon. bleh. oh well. thankfully though, bud gets to take a vacation this summer to visit family and go to a convention. i'm glad he gets to go and have fun. i'll be watching my nephews then, which is super exciting. and it will almost be like a vacation when juile and johnny come to visit in june. wow... that's a lot sooner than i thought. just over 4 months. wooo! oh but to be able to relax...

relax... back massages... room service... no time limits... no expectations... no demands... yes. i want that.


today, was a good day. the girls have been really good the past couple days. they have been extremely understanding in the area of me not really playing much with them. since i hurt my leg, it's not that easy to just hop on the floor and play. but it's nice to have them just come up and hug me and sit on my lap. leila has been running to me as soon as she see's me in the morning, thats so refreshing and sweet. it will be hard to leave them. i can feel myself slowly checking out, as most people do in a job they are leaving. but my heart is still connected to the girls. they have basically been like my kids for over a year now. i'm going to miss them. i'm going to miss teaching them things and watching them learn and experience life. i'm glad i can see them on friday evenings. that will help things.

i dyed my hair. it is now a nice shade of brown. all one color. no more blonde and brown roots. yep.

oh - side note: i need to crack down on some homework. need to get on the history stuff...

well, its time for sleep. going to go spend some time with the husband and try to get to sleep earlier than i have the past 2 nights. ugh. oh... someone help. i want this dang cough to go away. boo. hiss!