i'm so sick of health insurance and all the talk about it. i will not get into what i think of the "health care reform" and all that because i try very hard not to be too political. at least not on my blog. really it depends on the topic but health insurance is not one of them. but right now i want to vent about what the asinine system is putting me through.
***warning*** i'm going to be talking about my menstrual cycle. if its TMI then don't read any further! you've been forewarned.***
i have endometriosis. i think i've talked about it before. anyway here's the short of what it is. every month a woman has a menstrual period where the inner lining of the uterus sheds. endometriosis occurs when tissue like that which lines the inside of the uterus grows outside the utuerus, usually on the surfaces of organs in the pelvic and abdominal areas, in places it should not and is not supposed to grow. it causes lesions and cysts and other things to happen within her body. it can also form a "cobweb" like mess inside as well. endometriosis has been linked to uterine cancer/endometrial cancer and the lining has been found in random places of a womens body, including the nose! its rare for that to happen but it has happened. it is also among the leading causes for infertility in woman. i think its like 30-40% of woman who have endo will have fertility issues.
anyway - i suffer from this. i was diagnosed with it 6ish years ago and i'm almost wishing i had never been diagnosed with it. the reason being, i now am considered in the eyes of the health insurance world as a "pre-existing condition." God forbid they see me as an actual woman who has a need and needs help to live a semi-normal life. i'm a woman who wants to have children, wants to not hurt every month almost all month. yes - the pain i feel is constant. i always have twinges or a sort of discomfort or pain, it just depends on the severity. if its very painful, then i speak up about it, other times, i don't think my husband even knows that i'm in pain. i'm a woman who wants to not have to think about things like uterine cancer and cysts and other things that are brought on by my condition. i don't want to have to think about fertility issues, especially when my husband and i long to have a family of our own. it must be far beyond them to see me as a human being rather than a statistic and an expense to them.
from the research i've done - i don't qualify for maryland medicaid because i'm not pregnant. oh hmm... let me think. that may be a problem because I HAVE ENDOMETRIOSIS AND NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR! BUT I CAN'T SEE ONE BECAUSE OF YOUR REQUIREMENTS. BUT IF I SAW A DOCTOR MAYBE THEN I COULD GET PREGNANT AND FIT YOUR REQUIREMENTS... UGH! then the insurance that MIGHT accept me want to charge me between $600-800 a month and the other ones won't accept me.
don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to put out a "pity me" story or whatever, i'm just so frustrated. hopefully when bud is able to find a job they'll give him insurance that would cover his wife too. i don't know though. who knows. i'm sorry for complaining and venting, but i rarely do. i've been struggling with my endo the past 6 months more so than normal and i'm pretty fed up with it. well, i guess this is all for now. i've calmed down and i'm ready to go to sleep. goodnight. live long and prosper.
***warning*** i'm going to be talking about my menstrual cycle. if its TMI then don't read any further! you've been forewarned.***
i have endometriosis. i think i've talked about it before. anyway here's the short of what it is. every month a woman has a menstrual period where the inner lining of the uterus sheds. endometriosis occurs when tissue like that which lines the inside of the uterus grows outside the utuerus, usually on the surfaces of organs in the pelvic and abdominal areas, in places it should not and is not supposed to grow. it causes lesions and cysts and other things to happen within her body. it can also form a "cobweb" like mess inside as well. endometriosis has been linked to uterine cancer/endometrial cancer and the lining has been found in random places of a womens body, including the nose! its rare for that to happen but it has happened. it is also among the leading causes for infertility in woman. i think its like 30-40% of woman who have endo will have fertility issues.
anyway - i suffer from this. i was diagnosed with it 6ish years ago and i'm almost wishing i had never been diagnosed with it. the reason being, i now am considered in the eyes of the health insurance world as a "pre-existing condition." God forbid they see me as an actual woman who has a need and needs help to live a semi-normal life. i'm a woman who wants to have children, wants to not hurt every month almost all month. yes - the pain i feel is constant. i always have twinges or a sort of discomfort or pain, it just depends on the severity. if its very painful, then i speak up about it, other times, i don't think my husband even knows that i'm in pain. i'm a woman who wants to not have to think about things like uterine cancer and cysts and other things that are brought on by my condition. i don't want to have to think about fertility issues, especially when my husband and i long to have a family of our own. it must be far beyond them to see me as a human being rather than a statistic and an expense to them.
from the research i've done - i don't qualify for maryland medicaid because i'm not pregnant. oh hmm... let me think. that may be a problem because I HAVE ENDOMETRIOSIS AND NEED TO SEE A DOCTOR! BUT I CAN'T SEE ONE BECAUSE OF YOUR REQUIREMENTS. BUT IF I SAW A DOCTOR MAYBE THEN I COULD GET PREGNANT AND FIT YOUR REQUIREMENTS... UGH! then the insurance that MIGHT accept me want to charge me between $600-800 a month and the other ones won't accept me.
don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to put out a "pity me" story or whatever, i'm just so frustrated. hopefully when bud is able to find a job they'll give him insurance that would cover his wife too. i don't know though. who knows. i'm sorry for complaining and venting, but i rarely do. i've been struggling with my endo the past 6 months more so than normal and i'm pretty fed up with it. well, i guess this is all for now. i've calmed down and i'm ready to go to sleep. goodnight. live long and prosper.
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