today i have lots on my mind and we'll see what comes out on this here blog. but first let me tell you what i did today. same old, same old really. i went to work and played with the babies. leila and ailia decided they didn't want to take naps today - so i'm assuming they were either little monsters for rhonda and richard tonight or they went to bed early. i hope neither and that i'm wrong. so after work, i came home and cleaned up the house a bit, vacuumed and got rid of some trash and reorganized. then i checked out the pictures daks posted of his little boy. zaedyn is precious!!!
becky came over tonight with brody! i love it when they come over because i can hang out with becky and get some baby fill time as well. i know, i am with twin babies all day long 5 days a week. but that doesn't mean i don't love spending time with brody. he's so dang cute! its never a dull moment when becky and i hang out. we can talk about the most random things and not really do anything but its still fun. well - its fun to me. i hope she enjoys herself when she comes over. i guess i'm kind of a boring person considering i don't do anything. but most everything costs money and i don't feel like spending money. ya know?
becky left about a half hour ago and now i'm sitting here, nostalgic and wanting. i don't remember if i mentioned this but it seems that EVERYONE around me is getting pregnant, was pregnant and had their baby or knows someone who is pregnant or was and already had their baby. just this past week i know of 2 babies that were born. i long to have a child of my own. it gets so bad sometimes that i get frustrated seeing all these people have babies and my heart aches to hold a child of my own. my arms long to cradle a child that will call ME mommy. i think i mentioned yesterday that i've started a blog of letters to my future children that i will one day pass on to them or give to them as a gift and HOPE that they will carry it on with their children. i am blessed that all these new lives are being brought into the world and that they are potential heirs to the kingdom of God, potential missionaries, pastors, teachers, doctors and future mommy's and daddy's. but sometimes my flesh gets the better of me and i almost resent those around me with children or having children. but i don't really - i love you all and i'm SO excited for you. please don't think i'm not. i just want what you have and i have to fight off jealousy. there i said it.
i love listening to jim brickman.
to add salt to the iwantababy wound, i'm missing hong kong. i am missing everything about it. the way it sounds in the crowded streets and mtr stations. i miss the way it smells walking down the street and passing by all the street vendors with different types of food. i miss taking prayer walks around the villages where ancestry worship runs rampant. i miss doing ministry there. i miss taking gifts to friends. its been over a year since we've been there and i know that if i were to go there now, it'd feel as if we never left. sure some things will be different. i mean come one, hong kong is a continually developing country... its always going to have something new for me to see. and i still have yet to visit all the touristy attractions. anyway - the last time we were there we struggled with finances which in turn kind of spoiled our trip a bit. but even thinking of the miserable times we had out there, the good amazing time we had and the blessings that God provided outweigh the bad. i'll stop whining now though. hong kong - i pray for you, and by that i mean i pray for your people, i pray for revival, for God to do a work of change in the people's heart. i pray for the saving of souls to all that live there and that missionaries will rise up from hong kong and go preach to their fellow chinese brothers and sisters just across the bridge.
i think i'm going to go play my iPhone video games and start winding down for the night. tomorrow is my nephew carters birthday party and i'm excited to go and bring him his truck i got him. i'm assuming a bunch of people got him trucks so i have the receipt and if they want me to take it back and get something else, i will totally do that. anyway - thats at 10:00am. afterwards we'll see what happens. oh and on a side note: i'm starting to feel a little bit better (more than yesterday). gogo antibiotics. kk. i'm off. agape.
becky came over tonight with brody! i love it when they come over because i can hang out with becky and get some baby fill time as well. i know, i am with twin babies all day long 5 days a week. but that doesn't mean i don't love spending time with brody. he's so dang cute! its never a dull moment when becky and i hang out. we can talk about the most random things and not really do anything but its still fun. well - its fun to me. i hope she enjoys herself when she comes over. i guess i'm kind of a boring person considering i don't do anything. but most everything costs money and i don't feel like spending money. ya know?
becky left about a half hour ago and now i'm sitting here, nostalgic and wanting. i don't remember if i mentioned this but it seems that EVERYONE around me is getting pregnant, was pregnant and had their baby or knows someone who is pregnant or was and already had their baby. just this past week i know of 2 babies that were born. i long to have a child of my own. it gets so bad sometimes that i get frustrated seeing all these people have babies and my heart aches to hold a child of my own. my arms long to cradle a child that will call ME mommy. i think i mentioned yesterday that i've started a blog of letters to my future children that i will one day pass on to them or give to them as a gift and HOPE that they will carry it on with their children. i am blessed that all these new lives are being brought into the world and that they are potential heirs to the kingdom of God, potential missionaries, pastors, teachers, doctors and future mommy's and daddy's. but sometimes my flesh gets the better of me and i almost resent those around me with children or having children. but i don't really - i love you all and i'm SO excited for you. please don't think i'm not. i just want what you have and i have to fight off jealousy. there i said it.
i love listening to jim brickman.
to add salt to the iwantababy wound, i'm missing hong kong. i am missing everything about it. the way it sounds in the crowded streets and mtr stations. i miss the way it smells walking down the street and passing by all the street vendors with different types of food. i miss taking prayer walks around the villages where ancestry worship runs rampant. i miss doing ministry there. i miss taking gifts to friends. its been over a year since we've been there and i know that if i were to go there now, it'd feel as if we never left. sure some things will be different. i mean come one, hong kong is a continually developing country... its always going to have something new for me to see. and i still have yet to visit all the touristy attractions. anyway - the last time we were there we struggled with finances which in turn kind of spoiled our trip a bit. but even thinking of the miserable times we had out there, the good amazing time we had and the blessings that God provided outweigh the bad. i'll stop whining now though. hong kong - i pray for you, and by that i mean i pray for your people, i pray for revival, for God to do a work of change in the people's heart. i pray for the saving of souls to all that live there and that missionaries will rise up from hong kong and go preach to their fellow chinese brothers and sisters just across the bridge.
i think i'm going to go play my iPhone video games and start winding down for the night. tomorrow is my nephew carters birthday party and i'm excited to go and bring him his truck i got him. i'm assuming a bunch of people got him trucks so i have the receipt and if they want me to take it back and get something else, i will totally do that. anyway - thats at 10:00am. afterwards we'll see what happens. oh and on a side note: i'm starting to feel a little bit better (more than yesterday). gogo antibiotics. kk. i'm off. agape.
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