the hate in this world....

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what is our nation coming to. we complain, we whine, we despair over the economy. yes, i realize its difficult to live when we're heading for recession, i understand fully the difficulty of finding a job and the ramifications it brings. and i will not turn a blind eye to the thousands, nay millions of people who are being affected by the economical crisis. but does this cause us to slump on the crying out of those around us? are we so shut down because of our own inconveniences that we don't care enough to find the different areas where people are struggling and help? we as a people have failed, and as a Christian - we have failed even more on so many levels. we're watching young people throw their lives away without even blinking an eye because we're focused on self, rather than our neighbor. how out of touch can we be? if our neighbor is suffering, its our job to help them out.

how out of touch can parents and teachers be, that a teenager feels they have no way out of their struggles and resort to substance abuse or suicide? i am not saying that in every case of suicide, the child's parent is to blame - because kids can be really good at putting up a front. i was! i read an article last night where i do not blame the parents for what happened, more so, i blame the schooling. i find a huge fault in a school when they say they have a "zero tolerance policy against bullying" yet they have allowed it to get to the point where a student shoots himself, because the pain is just too much. i know it can be hard when you have 40 students to a classroom, when schools are overpopulated - i do. but the schools should be teaching and growing their students into mature young adults, so that bullying is no longer a factor because its not cool to do anymore. all of the staff should be made aware of what bullying is and how to handle it.

bah. i don't want to sound arrogant. i just wish that the church would come together and reach out to those in need. if your neighbor is going through a foreclosure, although its a touchy subject - maybe see if there is something you can do to help. offer food, babysitting, an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. if your neighbor goes through a death or something else - be there for them. pray for your neighbors, tell them about the God that you serve, become relational, touch someones life so that they may have a softened heart towards the things of God. i remember when i was little - i was close enough with my neighbors that i could go across the street and borrow eggs or butter if i needed it for something. then i'd share whatever it was that i was baking with them! or i could run through their back yard and instead of getting yelled at for "trespassing", i'd get yelled at to come over to get some apples and peanut butter or cinnamon toast! the world is not innocent, i realize. but it did used to be a lot kinder, in my opinion. there aren't many neighborhoods anymore that i feel you can let your kids hang out outside till late and still feel safe letting them do so. *sigh* i'm done. just had to vent.



political side of me.

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so i know everyone is focused on the economic crisis going on. but here is an article i think the world should read.

http://www.geneveith.com/collective-shame/_998/

i try to remain calm about politics, i don't touch on the subject. i mean come on, i live in california - the most liberal state there is. ;-P so i usually just remain silent and vote how i want to vote. anyway - was sent this article by a good friend. hope it gets your thoughts moving.
agape.

green leaf in drought

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i just finished reading the book "Green Leaf In Drought" by Isobel Kuhn. this book is about the provisions the Lord makes for His children that are following His guidance. the family of arthur and wilda matthews along with their little girl lilah went through SO much. they literally had nothing yet remained faithful to the Lord and His calling on their life. when times got rough, and when they had black days, God provided scripture and physical things to meet their daily needs. its so great to see the hand of God at work. this is a passage from the very last page of the book. read it, it so applies to the life of today's christians! mind you this book was originally published in 1958!

"Andrew Murray has warned us how easy it is for the cares of this life to choke the Seed. He says: ''The power of the world, the spirit of its literature, the temptations of business and pleasure, all unite to make up a religion in which it is sought to combine a comfortable hope for the future with the least possible amount of sacrifice in the present.' That describes the home church today. But who knows when the drought is going to strike us also? Is it possible for any Christian to put forth green leaves when all he enjoys in this life is drying up around him?

We feel this question and its answer are worth sharing with you, hence this book.

'I will pour water on him that is thirsty,
I will pour floods upon the dry ground.
Open your heart to the gift I am bringing.
While ye are seeking, I will be found.'
The Holiest of All"

i hope you enjoyed this little blurb. just thought i'd encourage you all to find this book and read it, also to encourage my brothers and sisters of the faith that "God does not waste suffering, The tests He sends or permits are in reality His vote of confidence, for He undertakes not to allow us to suffer any testing beyond our powers of endurance." - J. Oswald Sanders. God provides for His children and we can have confidence in the fact that whatever storms we go through, if we stand in awe of His presence, stand steadfast on His word and glory in the Spirit, God gives peace, understanding and undying, unwavering, unfathomable love to those He calls. its lives like the one of Job that fully understand what God "can be to those who gladly embrace His will and accept His discipline, no matter how inscrutable." even now i'm getting goosebumps thinking of the love that i receive from my Heavenly Father. i can have hope that even if i'm stuck and unable to say anything to those around me, if i obey spiritual disciplines, am able to show love, remain faithful in my prayers, sing praises to the King and listening intently to the voice of the Holy Spirit - He is faithful to show Himself to those who witness such happenings. amen. agape.

"Please, please show me your Bible."

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the title of this blog is a short excerpt from the heavenly man by brother yun and paul hattaway. just this strong desire is enough to bring me to tears and show me that if i'm not serious about my relationship with the Lord then i should sit down and go home. i've only read 3 chapters but the point has struck to heart. i have talked to many people about the need for bibles in China, i've expressed to them the things they go through just to get their hands on them but did i truly understand myself? maybe. maybe not. i'm not sure. but i do know, that this is something that's been grabbing my attention the past few days. the depth of brother yun's desire to see the word of God, just a glance, show's the deep, the utter love and adoration he has for His LORD. hearing of men and women rejoicing in the Lord, hoping in and worshiping the LORD while chained to walls, tortured and neglected by those in power around them; is humbling and heart wrenching. how deep do i go with my Lord? how superficial am i? i have my times of longing for the Lord, but i am way to complacent in this land of america, land of the free. i'm reading two books right now. one i've already mentioned and the other is tortured for christ by richard wurmbrand. i recommend that you read both of these books. and while i'm at it, read God Smuggler by brother andrew. all of these books show you what people in different areas of the world have gone through (and are going through), just to hold a Bible and to be a christian.

most americans own a Bible. in fact, 92% of households in america own at least one copy. of those households that own a Bible, the average number of Bibles is three. this includes not only the homes of christians but hundreds of thousands of atheists as well. can you imagine what those of the underground church would think, if they understood the reality of the american life. the reality being that for the most part, christians who are free to worship how they want are able to have one-two-three Bibles, can worship openly, can have Bible studies in the open - in public places like starbucks and the like. that instead of having a fire, an undying and unwavering desire to seek out the Lords will, to know Him better, to grow, feast and live out His word and to fulfill The Great Commission; we're complaining and pissing away our time on meaningless dribble. the underground church would think that we're absolutely nuts! and the problem with this is many westerners think people are crazy for laying their lives on the line for the Lord, for the Bible, for risking all that they have. they say "conform" or "obey the government."

i can understand that its hard to understand the depths of what i'm talking about, i also understand that "first hand witness" is needed for a lot of people to see the graveness of the situation. but we do have things at our fingertips that will help us grasp whats going on in the world today. we have ways of spreading the word of the needs in China and other countries suffering severe religious persecution. i also understand that its hard to listen and its hard to chew on the reality of people being thrown in jail, beaten and worse, all for their belief in God. its like watching those commercials of little babies in africa with swollen bellies and flies in their eyes. it causes them to feel uncomfortable, it causes squeamishness, it may even drive someone to write a check to soothe their conscience. but what needs to happen for revival in the land is a true awakening of the Saints! we need to go out and help. "
Then he said to his disciples, The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few;" - Matthew 9:37. i know that this comes off very demanding, i know this comes off as i am on a high and mighty rant or pedestal, that i'm judging and telling people where they are lacking and what they need to do; and i guess that i am. christians need to wake up and do their job, instead of worrying about their prized possessions and worrying about their lives. we need to devote and place our lives fully into the hands of the Lord, trusting only Him with their lives, not this world, not the stock system, not banks and jobs, not even their home churches. nothing is secure unless the Lord is in it. its time to wake up and do whats right for the Kingdom of God and for my beautiful brothers and sisters from all over the world who are in chains for the Lord. lets get serious about whats going on and do something about it. i thank the Lord for His ways of grabbing my heart and i'm so excited that the next few months, i'm blessed with the opportunity to go and do what i'm preaching. i just pray that i will be sensitive to the Spirit, that i will be able and willing to do whatever God calls me to do and to have no fear in doing it. agape.

hong kong memories...

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hi there everyone. bud and i are thinking and praying about hong kong and all that is in our future regarding it. i've been terribly nostalgic and missing my home away from home, so i thought i'd post some pictures for you, so you can see what has gone on. i'll try to add captions as well and why the pictures mean so much to me. some are serious and some are just fun. i hope you enjoy.(p.s. until i can get bud to fix the html, some of the photo's are cut off. so just click on them to see the full photo.)

fun times in hong kong:

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po ying birthday party. you can't really get around hong kong without her!

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po ying's party in pak wai tsuen, north sai kung area.

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maggie again. i think this photo is just too cute!

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although she is not a native, i met cami in hong kong. well, i met her in person in hong kong!

friends were made. they are so special to us. we email back and forth as much as possible and stay in touch. but its just not the same as being there with them.

food and tourism in hong kong:

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this will hopefully be one of the first things i'll eat in hk when we go back! french toast, peanut butter and honey. :drool:

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iced lemon tea, or "dung ling mun cha". the best invention of tea. i dont know why its so good. (so is milk tea but i dont have a picture of it.)

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top one noodle, shatin mall. wonton soup - my most favorite soup. i could eat it everyday!

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green chopsticks in fanling. they are so nice there and we have become friends with the waitress. she's awesome.

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shatin at night. beautiful!

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sheung shui, hong kong.

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star ferry at night. coming from hong kong island and going back to kowloon/new territories.

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at the harbor! azn fingers!

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tsim sha tsui at night. oh man its a great place!

the goal of hong kong, to help those to see Christ, to understand their depraved state and to let Him change their hearts:

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entrance to our village. we lived in tsz tong tsuen. in our backyard and up a few hundred steps, you reach a temple where people burn incense and hell money to honor and worship their ancestors.

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our village in fanling, tsz tong tsuen. you can see a shrine type thing at the bottom of the hills, joss sticks and all. this village needs prayer and the spiritual weight you felt when living there would only be lifted by the hope and grace of Jesus Christ.

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the temple behind our house. this is just the entry way, if you want to see more pictures let me know. the grounds of the temple are immaculant. full of gargoyles and fish ponds and turtle ponds and scupltures. you can see a person walking in to burn incense in this photo.

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people are burning hell money to pay and "bless" their ancestors that have passed away. this is very difficult to watch.

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tseng lan shue, sai kung. this is where bud and i moved to be closer to his work. in this village there were at least 6 shrines and mini temples for people to worship their ancestors.

and last but not least, worship that we were able to join in. its the most remarkable thing. the chinese people, those that love the Lord, pray fervently, pray without ceasing, groan in the Spirit and God meets them where they are and shows them His truth and His light. they pour out their hearts to Him and long to know Him and experience Him more. i only got one picture from church but i think it shows a lot!

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sunday worship at the vineyard in kowloon.

with this church we went on an outreach at the beach. we didn't personally talk to people but witnessed people in the church doing so and we prayed a lot for the people there.

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clearwater bay outreach.

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hong kong is ripe for God's word and truth to go forth. laborers are needed. praise the Lord for the opportunity to be apart of this work the Lord is doing. :) hope you enjoyed the pics. :)

agape,
christin joy.

a passionate one.

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passion. i was recently bombarded with an accusation that has kept my mind busy. i was told i've lost my passion, i've lost my drive. i'm different in a way that's not appealing to someones idealistic impression. its not that what was said is bothering me, it just got me thinking. i've been thinking about it. trying to rationalize what was said. trying to figure out why they would say that after a single 5 minute conversation, when there's been a lack of communication for at least 6 months. but now i realize that its not that i've lost my passion. its that my passion has shifted and is focused on different things.

my passion. here's worthwhile passion. being driven to see the Gospel go forth to all the unreached people groups of the world. being passionate for the hard working chinese who need to hear of God's saving grace. having a passion for the children of this world, born and unborn. a passion to help woman survive in a chauvinistic world but to still be a proverbs 31 woman who is able to fend for herself and provide for her family if need be. my passion is to help my husband in a ministry that He has been lead to by the Holy Lord of Lords. i'm daily seeking to better myself and the only way i find that i am able to do such a thing is to fully depend on God's guidance and encouragement. if i place my passion into things of this world, its going to do nothing but take away from my gifts for the Lord and spit in my face when it does nothing for me in return. God has promised me an inheritance, a blessing above all blessings. if i were to put my passion into something that is not going to honor that promise, what good is it?

there are people heading to hell everyday. granted, i know that God doesn't need my feeble brain and feeble attempts to get people to hear what He wants to say to them. but He has asked me to do it nonetheless. so my passion is to serve my God first and foremost. to honor Him in all that i do and all that i seek to do with my life. i want my life to be poored out like a drink offering to Him, devoted and laid out so that He can do what He wants with me. so where did my passion go? its been shifted into gear heading towards Jesus, what He wants me to do, and not to fulfill my own selfish desires that would not, in the long run, make me feel fulfilled or accomplished. thank you Lord for showing me how precious i am to You and how you're molding my heart into Your heart. agape.

paul says it so well...

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"To all those in Rome who are loved by God and called to be saints: Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. First, I thank my God through Jesus Christ for all of you, because your faith is proclaimed in all the world. For God is my witness, whom I serve with my spirit in the gospel of his Son, that without ceasing I mention you always in my prayers, asking that somehow by God's will I may now at last succeed in coming to you. For I long to see you, that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to strengthen you that is, that we may be mutually encouraged by each others faith, both yours and mine. I want you to know, brothers, that I have often intended to come to you (but thus far have been prevented), in order that I may reap some harvest among you as well as among the rest of the Gentiles."
- Romans 1:7-13


daily my heart thinks and wanders back to hong kong. the sounds of the very busy and loud streets with their flashing lights and beeping crosswalks. the feeling of thousands of people running into you and cutting you off as you walk. the smell of durian fruit at the market. the amazing scenery when you climb 300+ stairs to look down and over the village you are living in. the feeling of my heart sinking as i walk past the many monestaries and the seemingly random shrines placed all over the place with freshly lit incense. the daily reminder of how derelict and depraved this world really is. the daily reminder to pray for those around you because in a city of over 7million people, the amount of those whose souls will burn in the eternal fire of hell is huge. the daily reminder to bless those who curse you and to reach out to those in need. the little old ladies whose backs are so crooked that they look like a question mark. the large amounts of homeless people and cripples who haggle for money day in and day out. all of this is not even the tip of the iceberg of what and why i miss hong kong. this doesn't even scrape the surface of the emotions that fill my very being when i think about hong kong, when something jogs my memory. hot tears pour down my face when i think of such things and theres very little i or anyone can do to cool my cheeks.

oh how i miss my little homeless lady. i hope she is okay. i pray that she is well. i pray she is getting food since i am gone. oh how i miss the random people i'd meet at the harbor while sitting and watching ferries and other commercial boats go by. i miss my indian friends at sherry-pun-jab. i miss the random people God would place in mine and buds path to minister too. i miss taking prayer walks around tseng lan shue village and i miss maria. oh how i hate that i lost her address! :( i miss grace and winton. i hope their little baby is okay! i REALLY need to write to them. oh how i long to be there with them, i long to preach the Gospel to them, i long to fellowship with my brothers and sisters of hong kong. i miss my po ying and maggie cho! i miss debbie and esther and everyone at happyland. oh how i miss my kids! i miss having cameron come over to my house, talking about the Lord, having food, watching movies and hanging out and acting "gangsta". i miss it. i complained while there because i was letting the enemy and circumstances make me lose my focus. and now that i'm back in stale old america, i realize just how alive i felt out there. just how useful i could have been. how i need to go back and fulfill the things i had hoped to do. i need to start hopes refuge. Lord, let bud's schooling go quickly. send us home to hong kong soon. my heart longs to be with them, to share in fellowship and to share in the gospel with those whom you love. agape.

God Provides

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just as God provided for Elijah from the wrath of King Ahab. just as God provided for the israelites in getting them out of egypt. just as God provided for the disciples and for the sick and the poor and the hungry... God is still a God who provides today. He provides and still does miracles. watch these videos and see how awesome.









so amazing. i read this book a long time ago but the family/outreach finally put up stuff on youtube! so now you can see videos.

agape,
christin

Come let us return to the LORD; for He has torn us, that He may heal us; He has struck us down, and He will bind us up. After two days He will revive us; on the third day He will rise us up, that we may live before Him. Let us know; let us press on to know the LORD; His going out is sure as the dawn; He will come to us as the showers, as the spring rains that water the earth. -Hosea 6:1-3

this brought me to tears...

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this is what i wanted to do. i'm so glad that someone was able to go and do it. hopefully God will allow me to have an opportunity to do this the next time a false prophet comes nearby, or even in my neighborhood. i dont know if i'll do open air, but who knows, maybe thats what God wants. i'm not sure. either way, the Lord's Gospel and Law must be preached and i pray for those who mock the word of the Lord.

john 3:16-21
"For God so loved the world,that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God."

matthew 24:24
"For false christs and false prophets will arise and perform great signs and wonders, so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect."













agape.

ngoh oi nei jue

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"Your steadfast love will lead us through the tempest. grace and strength are ours. Your faithfulness will see us through the storm. and give us hope to carry on."
- anchored by enfield.


i have been craving to know whats going on with current events in my friends lives. i've been desiring to take on their burden alongside them. but today - after speaking with my husband - i realized that i was wrong in what i was feeling. the desire to bear my brother and sisters burden is not wrong per se, but the way i wanted to go about it and the way i wanted to be involved was wrong. i need to be in prayer, i need to be growing spiritually and intimately with God rather than letting this nonsense stagger me and cause me to become angry at churches. i already have enough of that bitterness i need to let go of, i cannot continue to add to it. i have always had a problem with wanting to fix everything. i know as of today, that thats not what God wants from me. God has shown me what He wants from me, what He wants from bud and i, and i need to be content in that.

i have a goal ahead of me. God has given me a desire and a vision for the people of hong kong and china. all that i do here in america should be in preparation for the things that God has put on my heart for asia. spiritual growth above and beyond any growth i've made in the past (your spiritual downfalls magnify themselves when you're on the mission field, because the enemy can't stand that you are out there hoping to complete the great commission.), creating a support team that is strong and willing to support the mission, being spiritually minded in all things that the enemy wants to throw at me, allowing God to magnify Himself in my life. this very thing going on with friends and their church is something the enemy wants to use to get me off task. yes, the kids are a priority to me as i have fallen in love with them. but getting involved with the logistics and politics of the church - i learned - is not something for me to do unless it comes down to it. rather, i want to be in constant communication with the kids and see how they are doing. so thats what i'm going to do with this situation. and as i'm growing spiritually, letting God refine and define me, i will do more good for those involved and those around me. God will give me courage and words of encouragment and exhortation for those i love and those who need it. i need to focus on Jesus in all things, and He will use me in situations He see's fit. so while i'm here in america - a temporary home - i will do the works of my Lord that will then lead us to hong kong - another temporary home - where i will do the works of my Lord and hopefully then - we'll be taken to our promised home and we will rejoice:

"We will sing on that day, Hallelujah, Bless Your name We will bow at your throne singing Hallelujah, we are finally home!"
- finally home by enfield.

for the next month i'm going to be studying the beattitudes, hopefully by the grace of God, committing them to memory - and in response to what i learn, i pray that God will provide me opportunities to preach His Gospel, that He will grow me and refine me, allowing me to be the daughter of mercy He ordained from the beginning of time. i'm learning that whatever i may not fully understand about the way God works in this world, (since things are so screwed up lately) one thing is clear: that His ultimate purpose – in all His wrath, power and mercy is "to make known the riches of his glory for vessels of mercy, which he has prepared beforehand for glory." - romans 9:23. if i'm living in this promise and truth - living out His call on my life, my desires of helping those i care most about will come to fruition. the lyrics at the top of this entry are so true, we are given hope and grace to get through the hard times. praise the Lord. if you want to read the beattitudes along with me and study them with me or read them and discuss let me know. it would be great to have others doing this with me.

"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
"Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
"Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
"Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
"Blessed are you when men reviled you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so men persecuted the prophets who were before you."

to understand the beattitudes you must understand they are an announcement and reminder of how fortunate people are who already possess, the power of the kingdom. but thats not all. the beatitudes also contain an implicit invitation to become this kind of person. i want to become this person everyday i'm alive, or at least to be refined into nothing more than this person. i want all of me to remain dead at the cross while i am living in sanctification and growing in grace upon grace. agape.