i want to take a brisk walk in the cool night air. the streets are dark with only a few street lamps to guide the way. my mind is wandering. my mind is desiring. my heart is yearning for things that are not within my reach. the memories are what keep me sane and the hopes for new life keep me pushing along this dry land. unfortunately - the more i wait and long for the future, the more i feel i am just trudging along a muddy embankment, a soil so soggy it holds on to my feet trying to drag me down. i know where my hope comes from and i know that the light in me is seeking to be let out. however - there are times when the overwhelming flood of emotions and frustrations come and i do feel like i'm going down with them.
Lord you are my strength and refuge, an ever present help in times of need. please bring me out of this place. remind me that you've taken me from the miry clay, that you've cleansed me with your purifying water, that you're refining me in your fire and have brought me to life and life abundant. help me to hold on to your promises, to cling to your very word and trust in your saving grace. i'm struggling with frustrations, with anticipation, with desires and with pain. ONLY YOU can provide the insight, provide the patience, provide the sustenance and provide the healing that i require. help me Lord. teach me to trust. teach me to pray. pray for me Holy Spirit, sing for me oh Lord. please, use my voice to do your bidding, use my singing to spread the Gospel. use me Lord, use my gift that only YOU have given to me.
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i want to remember what its like to be under a sky full of stars and feel oh so small. i want to stand in the sand with waves rushing over my feet and feel myself being pulled out slowly by the strong currents. oh how easy it was to drive without caring where you were going and to stop and take pictures of anything, on a whim. to stay out late at night, driving with no other headlights on the dark streets. blaring loud music, windows down with the heat up high. what a sensation. the sound of crunching leaves on the ground and the smell of winter air creeping in, the smell of snow in the sky. i'm dressed to go and ready to run. lets take it on as it comes. weary and exhausted, i'm ready to lay my head down. trusting the Lord in my vulnerable state of mind. the time is now to trust in Him and i do, i do trust in you, Jesus.
Lord you are my strength and refuge, an ever present help in times of need. please bring me out of this place. remind me that you've taken me from the miry clay, that you've cleansed me with your purifying water, that you're refining me in your fire and have brought me to life and life abundant. help me to hold on to your promises, to cling to your very word and trust in your saving grace. i'm struggling with frustrations, with anticipation, with desires and with pain. ONLY YOU can provide the insight, provide the patience, provide the sustenance and provide the healing that i require. help me Lord. teach me to trust. teach me to pray. pray for me Holy Spirit, sing for me oh Lord. please, use my voice to do your bidding, use my singing to spread the Gospel. use me Lord, use my gift that only YOU have given to me.
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i want to remember what its like to be under a sky full of stars and feel oh so small. i want to stand in the sand with waves rushing over my feet and feel myself being pulled out slowly by the strong currents. oh how easy it was to drive without caring where you were going and to stop and take pictures of anything, on a whim. to stay out late at night, driving with no other headlights on the dark streets. blaring loud music, windows down with the heat up high. what a sensation. the sound of crunching leaves on the ground and the smell of winter air creeping in, the smell of snow in the sky. i'm dressed to go and ready to run. lets take it on as it comes. weary and exhausted, i'm ready to lay my head down. trusting the Lord in my vulnerable state of mind. the time is now to trust in Him and i do, i do trust in you, Jesus.
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