Yeshua Ha'Maschiach. you are the only one that can prepare and make sense of our lives and the path you have laid before us. you say "blessed are the pure in heart" and i ask that your purity will go before us, will cleanse us of our shame and this disease we call sin. please allow our eyes to see how much you truly do love us. Abba, make sense of all of this - why does prideful yet false humility have to continue to hurt my heart. why do others inability to be cordial and Christ like have to fill my heart with sadness. why Lord, can i not just brush this off as i have been encouraged to do, why do i obsess over lost friends, why do i fall apart and hurt and cry over their friendship that is now lost. i know and am confident that what i did, what you instructed me to do was the right thing. Your word is so clear in how you want us to walk and how we are to handle issues of sin amongst fellow believers. only you can make sense of this for me and i know that you will. i am confident in your faithfulness. praise you Adonai.
theres so much on my heart and on buds right now. it was hard for me to write the above prayer as it is very open on how i feel about people, what i think of people and how i don't know what to do anymore. i don't want to beat anything into the ground, i'm just wondering what i am to do next. tomorrow we have a meeting about it with a bit of leadership here in hong kong and well, we'll see how it goes. i pray that it goes the way its supposed to, i pray the Lord's voice will speak louder than anyones. oh what a mess this turned into. what a fuss has been made. theres more to be said about our lives at the moment but my beloved has just returned home from work and i'm going to spend some much needed time with him. agape.
theres so much on my heart and on buds right now. it was hard for me to write the above prayer as it is very open on how i feel about people, what i think of people and how i don't know what to do anymore. i don't want to beat anything into the ground, i'm just wondering what i am to do next. tomorrow we have a meeting about it with a bit of leadership here in hong kong and well, we'll see how it goes. i pray that it goes the way its supposed to, i pray the Lord's voice will speak louder than anyones. oh what a mess this turned into. what a fuss has been made. theres more to be said about our lives at the moment but my beloved has just returned home from work and i'm going to spend some much needed time with him. agape.
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